Day 1

Day 1 – June 4, 2009

It makes sense to me. I write about everything else in my life, why not this?  Today I have begun my weight loss, get healthy challenge. It is the desire to change my habits that have propelled me to this place where I now find myself.  I admit, I don’t quite remember the journey, but I definitely see the difference.  For over 14 years I have been struggling to loose the “baby fat” gained during the pregnancy of my son and the breakup with his Dad.  I am now sitting at the end of my 34^th year with my stomach bulging from my pants.  This does nothing to encourage me this particular morning.  What is my problem?  That is the thought most fresh in my mind.  God, can you help me?  Praying mentally, I proceeded to device a plan, a new strategy, a kick fat routine destined for success.  A pop up word burst through my musings “self discipline”.  I remember Him, God that is, saying something to me about this a few months ago.  Was this in response to the same prayer?  I don’t remember.  Exercising discipline seems to be my weakest link.  This disregard for discipline has led me to the table I am now compelled to sit before.  Truth be told, my lack of discipline, or rather my unwillingness to practice it, has affected every area of my life.  It has carved out the woman I am today, and I don’t always like who I see, and what I do.  God made me in His image, but it is I who have changed it in my deviation from His plan.  Discipline/Self Control – is a fruit of the spirit according to Paul in his letter to the Galatians.




Galations 5: 22 – 25 (Amplified)
22But the fruit of the [Holy] Spirit [the work which His presence within accomplishes] is love, joy (gladness), peace, patience (an even temper, forbearance), kindness, goodness (benevolence), faithfulness,
    23Gentleness (meekness, humility), self-control (self-restraint, continence). Against such things there is no law [[f]that can bring a charge].
    24And those who belong to Christ Jesus (the Messiah) have crucified the flesh (the godless human nature) with its passions and appetites and desires.
    25If we live by the [Holy] Spirit, let us also walk by the Spirit. [If by the Holy Spirit [g]we have our life in God, let us go forward [h]walking in line, our conduct controlled by the Spirit.]

Prayer:

God I need your help. I cannot do this without you.  It is not just the food, but it is the flesh rising up inside of me and overcoming me with it’s passions and appetites and desires.  Father, this is multifaceted and I need your help to walk the line, being controlled by the spirit.  Father, may today your word which is like a double edged sword pierce through the passions of my flesh.  Father may my actions today be evident of self restraint, self control, discipline.