WHY IS THIS SO HARD?

 I have been on this journey to lose weight for years.  The pages of this digital diary certainly keeps better track than I do right now.  It has been arduous!!!!

Actually let be honest, at least with myself.  I have not been consistent.  Again,  the evidence is obvious from the gaps between posts in this diary.  I have been lazy and unintentional in my efforts.  I really want to lose weight and be healthier but I don't understand why I am unwilling to do the work. Every success story I have heard has in common these things - Consistency and Effort.  A big sigh here if I can.  

Okay, I am finished for today with the why I have not and am ready to focus on the why I can and I should.  I want to look good but it is so much more than that.  I want to feel great on the inside.  I want to know each day that I was intentional in my self care routine.  I want to be an example for others that taking care of your health is rewarding and needed.  I want to be the girl that does not shrink back just because something is hard.    I want to live out the I can do all things through Christ verse that i quote so often to others.  

Dear God,

It's me again in need of your strength and help.  I know that I need to make some changes regarding my health and  I know enough to know that I am not able to do what it takes on my own.  I need you Father.  Please help me to make a change for the better, to be consistent and intentional about my self care.   Thank you Lord in advance for your help, in Jesus' name, Amen.

Truth is...

Truth is I am tired.  Tired of battling the same thing day after day after day.  Can I get an amen?  Amen!  I don't know where you are in your journey towards a healthy size and a better you but I have been on the same path for decades.  (Excuse me while I inhale deeply here).   Now,  as I wrote that and for myself I hear this is a sign of insanity; Trying to do the same thing over and over and yes - expecting different results. You would agree with every other person with a rational brain that this is not the way to achieve the desired goal - to achieve any goal for that matter.

You see, this cycle has been a trend in my life in all areas of my life and truth is, this is not working.  The process is flawed because I am flawed.  I need to really examine what I am doing and inject truth.   Yes, a healthy does of truthful reality is what I need - doctor's order in fact.


God told me years ago and it has not changed that only truth will set me free.  I will say my own Amen.  I agree Father with you.


Heavenly Father,
thanks for the dose of truth today.  I know that I need to change my mindset and really get to the heart of the matter - the truth of the matter.  Please Lord help me to get to a place where I am effective in my journey towards health in  Jesus name.  Lord, please help all the other men and women that are struggling in this area as well.  I pray this in your son's name, Amen.

Invest in yourself

I recently read that we should invest in ourselves. Why? Because we are worth it. I am worth it. I have to realize that the prize tag on me is prize.  God created me and inputted in me the value of His son. For my life He died and I cannot allow this precious gift to become worthless in me.

So what does have to do with this diary? Well I realized today  now have a part to play.  I need to do my part. I need to believe that I am worth every effort it takes to maintain this precious gift. 

So, this morning I decided to make a different choice today. I decided to get out the clothes I bought to excercise and actually do it.

So here I am, sitting down on the bench after a long walk. I'm sweating and tired but I feel amazing!  I did it! A small investment today will reap big returns tomorrow.

Pray for me to remember this every day.

Father thanks for giving me the well needed reminder that I am worth the investment. In Jesus name. Amen.