I’m still in it

Got up this morning.

Really struggled with that.

Wanted to stay in bed a lot longer. The weather outside was frightful and for me that was not delightful. Got up anyway.

Made it out the door and I the car. Drove to the gym.

And the rest is history.

I’ve done it. It’s off my list. Goal accomplished and now I can move on.

I thought to myself, Lando girl you are still in it. This battle is about those who will endure.

I’m still in it! I celebrate this week and applaud the God who has enabled me to do what I could not do in my own strength. So yay God and yay me! This week I have a win!

Father thank you for helping me this week. I know that fighting against myself has been intense but God you have been my present help. Thank you Lord for being my trainer in this exercise routine I am trying to stick with. God I give you the glory in Jesus name!

Oh this flesh!!!!

I have discovered something about myself. I can exercise discipline. I proved it to myself the other day when I had to do a fasting blood test after work. I made through a full day of working without eating anything. I never cheated. Never yielded to temptation that was presented before me. I stayed true to the course that I set before me.

So then I thought why then do I not do the same thing in other areas of my life? Why then do I fail again and again at sticking with the plan for health? Is this not worth the time and effort, the sweat and pain? I find it remarkable that this lack of discipline is pocketed to only certain areas of my life.
I wanted to make better choices and my flesh literally rose up in combat against me. My nose sniffed out the McDonalds dries blocks away. My eyes saw every sign for fast food I passed along the way. My flesh screamed out for sugar in my tea. Is this not crazy? This is not the me that is to continue on into this year.  So I have resolved that it’s time for a change.

Father, I don’t want to continue on the path of insanity. I am asking you for help. Help me to exceeding the discipline needed to exercise and eat right. This is not a diet but a life style change that is needed. Lord, I’m committed to change by your strength in Jesus name. Amen.